What does it mean to be a Shaman and how did your initiation happen?
For me, being a Shaman is a destiny. It wasn't a choice because I would never know how to be a Shaman myself. I believe that being a Shaman is more than a profession or simply fulfilling a dream, but something that was written in the stars and comes as a potent atom that is established in the depths of our beings. A laser that opens up and expands inside and through our DNA and in this exact moment, when the initiation happens, it's an everlasting process. My initiation happened from birth; as a week and asthmatic child, I became a very lonely being. Long after, I needed to incarnate, root myself back into reality and understand what was life, comprehend that I had a body and that I existed. I married, had children and in the meantime I tore myself apart to absorb the teachings life offered me. Afterwards, I went to study physiology in an Academy while diving into Shamanic experiences in Peru, in the Andean lands... in the sacred Valley of the Incas.
Who are the students of Shamanism?
All those who want to know themselves and take the risk of signing under their own stories. These are the people who knock on my door and ask to enter, stripped from the common desires. They arrive imbued of cosmic nature.
You are also a Priestess are you not?
Yes, I am a devoted Priestess of the Mother Goddess. I don´t belong to any church, but I am a religious person in the literal sense of the term: religion=re ligare, which means, reconnecting to yourself, to your true field of connection, where the fountain of true wisdom pours permanently.
XamAM, do you have an academic qualification?
Yes, I'm a psychologist graduated by the Federal University of Bahia (UFBa) in 1989. I started working well before graduation.
And do you have other trainings?
Yes, I did psychoanalysis for many years, I studied and worked as a natural therapist for 7 years, delving into psychodrama and recently undertook an introductory and intermediate course in Ericksonian Hypnosis.
What is the difference between Shaman and XamAM?
In truth, to become a XamAM, I needed first to become a Shaman. XamAM has become a symbol to me, an initiation name. Something that was offered to me in a profound ritual of healing. It is probably the union of my destiny, to be a Shaman with capital letters of my baptised name, Alba Maria.
For how many years have you dedicated your service to Shamanism?
Chronologically speaking more than 30 years, mythically speaking an eternity.
What is your lineage? Who are your masters?
My lineage is lost in time and in space. I descend, in physical terms, from “cabolos”, indigenous, black and white people. I am a mixed race woman bringing in my blood atoms and energies that lead me to walk in fields and through times that have tattooed me and taken me to connections and achievements that are (even for me) unthinkable. Speaking in energy terms, I descend from stars and galaxies shaped by the energy of Mother Goddess, my Lady and my major Master. Here on Earth, She is represented by Mother Nature.
What is the importance of the lineage of the Mother Goddess in this moment of our planet and can it be found in other times and civilizations?
I feel that in this moment, the planet demands of us more awareness, where our choices need to be clear and aligned with the purpose and talents that we bring to life. In the lineage that I work, where Mother Goddess is sovereign, we learn to develop our intuitions and to know ourselves deeply, our shadows and light, and when we come across these forces we can continue towards our destiny in a more whole way. Without fears and doubts.
Our work has spread throughout Europe -specifically England, Germany and Italy - as well as in South America, Brazil and Peru. I see that this Service has also been offered in many civilisations, with the Celts in Europe, the Moches in Peru, the Sufis and in the ancient lands where Shamanism was established.
What are the differences between the Shamanism of the Mother Goddess that you practice, and other forms of Shamanism?
I don´t know what other people are practicing. I only know what I practice. When
I speak of Mother Goddess I am speaking of the energy of compassion, nurturing,
honesty, of conception and fertilisation. I am speaking of a conscious perception
of who we are and what we are doing on this planet. It is having the courage to
dive into oneself and hunt for oneself. Perceive the evil games and transform
them into blessed games.
How do you work with healing?
In order to answer this question, I must first define what healing means to me.
Healing is a process in which, initially, he or she who wants to be healed needs to
know if he or she truly wants to be healed and to overcome - with his or her entire
being - that symptom that persecutes him or her. From there on, I feel and see that the path is established within a process of comprehension and trust in which the first matter is to perceive the meaning of the symptom in its various dimensions: physical, mental, social, spiritual... Once the field of trust and honesty is established, we can penetrate the almost unfathomable mysterious fields of each person.
During the process, using dynamics that I create, I help people to perceive their internal instruments and thus promote their own healing process.
I don´t identify healing as a miracle in the common sense of the term, but a miracle that is achieved by the deep understanding of the symptom, by the opening field that is established inside each one and by the re-establishment of trust and high self esteem. The symptom is the matrix that turns the human being into a healer.
Which medicines do you work with?
Many... I work with the medicine of the Purification Lodge, Vision Quest, silence and meditation, with power and medicinal plants, with dialogue through the eyes and voice, with art... with life and death ... a blessedness and blessing true and unimaginable.
Do you hold ceremonies?
Yes, innumerable rituals where the Mother Goddess guides me.
What is it like to participate in a Ceremony with you?
It is an exercise of surrender and love. It is the possibility of an encounter with the Divine within us and its many manifestations.
Where and how do you live? How is your life in the community?
I live in the Terra Mirim community. Here I live in communion with nature, teaching and learning with those with whom I share this land and with many others that arrive here to be initiated into the Shamanic path and dive deep within themselves. My aim is to live my daily life in a conscious and harmonious way.
How do you guide your tribe?
Through my guidance, I try to inspire everyone to release their talents into the world so that through this vast cosmic process of solidarity, we can perform our service on this planet.
And outside of Brazil? What do you do when you travel?
I dedicate myself to work and commune with groups and individuals through the sharing of teachings. I learn to open my heart more and more and reach higher planes.
What fears must we overcome before diving into the Shamanic path?
Fears are many, depending on the journey of each person, but two of them are always present: going crazy or dying. I always say that crazy we already are, as we are choosing to know ourselves in such a chaotic world, and also we don't have to fear the physical death because we are going to experience it, whether we like it or not.
Could you talk more about the XamAM School?
The school started in 2015 when we did the first cycle “Medicine of the Four Elements”. In the following year we worked on the second cycle “Our Inner Animals” and in 2017, the third and last cycle “The Sacred Medicines”.
It appeared from an inner dream (that I didn't even know I had) and from the countless requests from the people that worked with me – healers, students, followers, friends and people interested in the topic.
The experiential studies are processed during an immersion of 40 days each year, closing a cycle of three years. Therefore, during three years, the person dedicates 120 days of his or her life in order to find his or her own Life.
What is the goal or goals of the XamAM School?
To help each person know themselves deeply and thus find their internal
talents and define themselves according to what they came to do here on Earth;
Reestablish the inner truth of each person;
Change patterns that prevent personal and cosmic fulfilment;
Form excellent healers and Shamans so that they can incorporate and take responsibility for their destinies and thus spread healthy seeds on the planet.
Does the XamAM School give a certificate?
In Shamanism, the certificate is the excellence of your work. Being a Shaman is an internal call, a destiny written by the stars. The school exists because the majority of humanity lost its capacity to hear the internal voice. By rescuing the senses, we rescue our cosmic mission. There is no certificate that guarantees you are a Shaman. It is necessary to understand that the XamAM School is different. It does not follow the rules of any formal institution, imprisoned in its own human laws. It is a school where the Master is the cosmic intelligence, Mother Goddess and God the Father in their potentialities adapted to humans. But if one day I feel that the lack of a nonsense piece of paper can facilitate the path of my students, I will create one.